Invisible String
The universe had a plan for us to align
There was a conspiracy I couldn't shake
It was a ploy made in the heavens
A ruse of epic proportions
Scheming for us to meet
There was a plan and I didn't know it
Until I met you
I questioned why life unfolded this way
No matter
I have you
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Anna Torres
I’m a 39-year old mother and student. I love reading, metal music, and writing. I have begun writing again since 2021
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Withdrawal
It's like I'm addicted to the struggle. I don't know how to let go of the toxicity you left me with. Being abandoned was a gift I couldn't give to myself. I can't keep hating you forever. It requires energy I just don't have anymore. I need to focus on myself and my own future without you. You are allowed to move on but so am I. Letting go of the past doesn't mean I forgive you. How can I? What have you done to us? Just because I leave you behind doesn't make it fair again. My agony and my revenge will come to pass eventually. Nothing is permanent, not even pain or suffering. Not resentment masquerading as love. It was supposed to uplift and bring me higher. Your excuse for love was merely a disgrace to my senses. You're not capable of selflessness. I wanted a love that reciprocates, that continued to choose me over everyone else. I have condemned this love to death. You didn't bring me peace or even joy. All you brought me was silence and possessiveness. I can't keep trying to dissect where we went wrong and how it could have gone differently. It doesn't matter anymore but the hurt still lingers. I have no closure but at least you're not here dragging me down like the anchor you always were. I was the one trying to be brave in the face of adversity. You kept threatening me with coercion and controlling me with unfounded fear. You're not better off like you want to believe. You have an image you need to uphold. I have the truth and it's the only thing that speaks for me. You don't get to change victims just because I refused to be yours anymore. I couldn't love myself with me not meeting my own high standards. I set those same expectations on you and you couldn't meet them either. I was never satisfied with however little you gave me. I'm still somehow alive and thriving despite your wicked actions and false words. You were every epitome of red flag that ever existed. You just sugarcoated yourself to appeal to my sweet tooth. You took advantage of my inexperience and my youth. That's not love. It never was. We called it what we wanted it to be but a lesson in disguise is the best way to describe you now. Please let me go with what little dignity I have left. You can't keep returning to extract more of what isn't there. I forfeit my place in your corrupt competition. Love shouldn't be as complex as it turned out to be. I expected honesty from you when I wouldn't dare to be honest of myself. I am ready for the expansion that couldn't have possibly happened if you were still here. My peace of mind is still out there. There is a debt to be collected but you'll never pay. I will soar into legendary status while you are stripped of all your vanity. Who's going to hold you accountable for your supposed incompetence now? You couldn't be loyal. You couldn't be brave with me. You just couldn't be what I wanted you to be. I couldn't find the answers with you. What I seek is beyond your intrusion these last 15 years. I wanted life to change but couldn't realize the change I needed was me. I was unhappy before you. I was unhappy with you. Clarity comes at a stiff price. It was you who must be sacrificed. I don't know what my future holds but without you, I'm looking forward to what it brings. I'm still afraid. I'm still apprehensive. I might always be insecure but I won't be intimidated anymore. I have no space in my life for that kind of downfall. This addiction is not my withdrawal. In time, I'll look at you and not be disturbed by your presence. One day, I'll think of you and be truly impressed by my indifference
By Anna Torresabout a year ago in Poets
Comments (2)
Your poem beautifully expresses the serendipity and wonder of finding someone special.
Aww so beautiful and a very logical reason people come together.