Bad habits
Does This Make Me Crazy?
The planet seems so unorganized when I wake up in the morning. Like a hundred puzzle pieces have been dumped on the ground, and I spend all day putting the puzzle together. By the days end I only get the corners and edge pieces done. Some days I start working on the inside, putting together what will be parts of a successful future. But right now, I'm only getting to the edge pieces and corners. I feel a lot of progress making sense of the world as the day goes on, but I don't know what happens when I sleep, but it all falls apart. It falls apart regardless of when I got to bed, early or late.
By Susan Eileen 4 years ago in Confessions
My Hero!
Dear Alcohol, It has been 17 months since our last romantic rendezvous. It was quite a night that we had together. Just you and I, alone on the open road. Night air flowing through the old blue Dodge's windows. The moonlight provided all the light we needed to find our way while traveling those country roads. Lake Erie waves crashed angrily against the soft sandy shore. Holding hands, I imagined us walking into those waves and drifting away together. The water swaddled us like a blanket while the rocking waves lullabied us into an internal sleep. I always thought together we would go out Bonnie and Clyde style. At the last moment, rather than drive off the cliff with you - I jerked the wheel and took a rapid turn. You floated through the air free; while I sat behind the wheel paralyzed. I am sorry, I abandoned you to save myself. However, I am eternally grateful to you!
By Amanda Marks4 years ago in Confessions
The effects of sugar of your body.
2021 was a tough year for me. I wasn't working for most of it the year. Not having a exact schedule to follow really messed with my mind, body, and eating habits. Towards the end of the year, I didn't feel the best. It wasn't that I was eating a lot or gained a bunch of weight or anything. It was just that what I was eating wasn't the healthiest. My eating had gone off the rails. I was eating a lot of processed foods and a lot of sugar. I felt like my body could use a reset. So I decided to do 3 days of no sugar, processed foods or processed carbs. I debated doing no carbs, but I don't think carbs are bad. I just wanted to eat as clean as I could.
By Talara Nolan4 years ago in Confessions
Are We Using the Toxic Person Label A Little Too Much?
I was scrolling through Instagram reels on self-care from “spiritual” influencers. Okay, even fashion influencers talk about toxic people and self-care practices involving a laundry list of products these days.
By Rashmi G4 years ago in Confessions
2 AM
2 am. Dripping sweat I kick my sheets onto the ground and roll over, frantically grabbing a glass of water off the side table. I quickly drink it without taking a breath in between, but my thirst does not feel quenched in the slightest. My mind is pounding as if someone is clanging cymbals on both sides of my head. Tears stream down my face as this is now nearing 3 weeks without a night of sleep. I feel delusional, like my mind is slipping away. The anxiety in me says to calm down so I can rest, but then the spinning thoughts work against everything I am trying to achieve.
By Puamana4 years ago in Confessions
Social Sobriety
I am recovering... from social media addiction. There, I said it. Outed myself. Admittance is the first step, right? ..errr, is it acceptance? I should definitely brush up on that one. Whatever the real phrase is, it has to do with awareness of the problem. And the immense amount I had to have of this situation to fix it.
By Samantha Elisabeth4 years ago in Confessions
Self Care, or Depression?
Rest, and relaxation. Time off from the busy work and life schedules. How can you tell if it's burnout or if you're simply depressed? It depends. When time off happens, the first thing people like to do (myself included) is sleep in. Often times, it doesn't happen for many of us, whether it's internal clocks, children, or animals keeping us from our precious sleep. I know the bed always feels the most comfortable right before you have to get out of it.
By DarkRandall4 years ago in Confessions
No Shame
Someone called me in 2018, and had the voice of freedom, to me anyways. What do I mean by voice of freedom, well every time, since the 2011 evolution, the person whose voice I heard, is the voice of my reality. Therefore, when someone that wasn't the voice of that person came over, I didn't mind, since every time we spoke on the phone, he was still there.
By I am me Amanda Nissen/Champion4 years ago in Confessions
The Size of Your lips changed
Please let me go Caleb, you are not here, and I don't want you to be. Not white and not black. I want home to come get me, so I can heal in an environment where nothing you showed me exists, the bad feelings don't exist either. I have never felt more alone, and you only kick me around in these dark days, after you broke my brain. I don't know what is real and what is not real anymore, that is why I demand I go where I know it's real. Where I know an XL male shirt, doesn't fit someone with my build.
By I am me Amanda Nissen/Champion4 years ago in Confessions
