bipolar

Bipolar disorder; understanding the highs, the lows and the in between.

The Refiner’s Fire Is Not the Whetstone
There is a difference between being sharpened and being transformed, and confusing the two leads to frustration when growth does not feel productive. Sharpening implies refinement of existing form. Fire implies change in composition. Both processes are uncomfortable, but they operate on different levels and for different purposes. When people expect sharpening and receive fire instead, they often assume something has gone wrong, when in reality something deeper is taking place.
By Peter Thwing - Host of the FST Podcastabout a month ago in Psyche
You See From Where You Stand
"The room remains full whether you can see it or not." One of the most persistent misunderstandings about perception is the assumption that seeing is the same as knowing. People often believe that if something feels clear, it must be complete, and if something feels obscure, it must be absent. But awareness does not work that way. What you perceive at any moment is not a measure of what exists. It is a measure of what your current position allows to pass through.
By Peter Thwing - Host of the FST Podcastabout a month ago in Psyche
You Are Not Empty, You Are Overloaded
You are not empty. You are not broken. You are not dull. - You are overloaded. - People often describe certain mental states as “having nothing in their head,” but that description is almost always inaccurate. What feels like emptiness is usually saturation. The mind has not stopped producing content. It has lost spare capacity. The system is busy allocating energy toward coping, regulating, or enduring, and there is little left over for reflection, synthesis, or creativity. This distinction matters, because mistaking overload for emptiness leads people to judge themselves harshly for conditions that are largely structural and biological.
By Peter Thwing - Host of the FST Podcastabout a month ago in Psyche
Learning How to Live After a Mental Illness
How does one look for inspiration in terms of what to do with their life, if they themselves have spent nearly the last decade, experiencing turbulence with their mental health?
By Klara Kabelik2 months ago in Psyche
Raw record of my mental illness on YouTube can’t be erased
During a bout with mental illness that occurred shortly after my dad died and other traumas, I went through a phase where I created YouTube videos while in psychotic states.
By David Heitz2 months ago in Psyche
Living With an Anxious Attachment Style
Living with an Anxious Attachment Style for me, is one of the worst feelings. I’ve always experienced the emotions associated with it, for as long as I can remember, never really knowing why.
By Klara Kabelik2 months ago in Psyche
I Am Bipolar Mood Disorder. Content Warning.
He doesn’t appear all at once. He never has. At first, he feels like energy. Like clarity. Like finally being able to breathe without effort. Her thoughts sharpen. Her body hums. Sleep becomes optional, then unnecessary. The world opens wider than it ever has before, and for a while, she believes this is what “better” feels like.
By Solaryn2 months ago in Psyche
Rediscovering My Hobbies
I was always told from a young age, by my parents and close family members, that I couldn’t stick to a single activity. From vocal lessons to piano and guitar, to ice skating, dance, and more.
By Klara Kabelik2 months ago in Psyche
The Weight of Ink
Arthur’s desk lamp threw a sickly yellow circle onto the stack of paper, illuminating the same half-finished letter he’d been staring at for the better part of a decade. His hand, gnarled and spotted with age, trembled slightly as he picked up the pen, the cheap plastic cool against his skin. Whiskey sat beside it, amber liquid shimmering in a heavy glass, untouched. Not yet. He always waited until the words, or the lack of them, had thoroughly beaten him down.
By HAADI2 months ago in Psyche
The Night I Understood Football
I didn’t go to the game expecting hope. It was a cold November Thursday. My brother had just lost his job. My nephew hadn’t spoken in days after a school incident. The world felt heavy, and the last thing I wanted was to watch a mismatch—our hometown team facing a dynasty that hadn’t lost in months.
By KAMRAN AHMAD2 months ago in Psyche
A Distant Memory. Content Warning.
**Editor's Note** This article was previously posted on Medium. You can read the original blog here: https://medium.com/@klarakabelik/a-distant-memory-e7500de4d1dc
By Klara Kabelik2 months ago in Psyche
The Last Article of 2025
As the year is coming to an end, I find myself in a reflective space, thinking about the past 365 days, as well as where I’m at in this current point in time.
By Klara Kabelik2 months ago in Psyche